It says something when you look through your entire list, and discover to your greatest dismay that you ain't got anyone there who's able to make you feel better.
Much better than this shit you're equivalent to now.

Sometimes all you want to believe in, is that you are something in this world.
But things, or rather people, are not going to let you have that luxury. No. They're going to tear you down, break you apart till maybe one day, you see yourself no more.

Tell me what to do.
Because if I don't snap out of things soon I'll just, disintegrate.

okaaay. so school was BORING. i'm updating so our dear heffalump can see in case she didn't read my sms! (((: i'm so nice rightttt? -say yes! nudges. LOL. okay i'm not exactly feeling lame. guess what? the fan's on and i'm perspiring. o.o

OKAY MY FINGER HAS HEALED! but i still do'nt feel like chatting online though i'm SIGNED IN. grah weird nicole tsk. prac today was so irritating and sianed cos tls picked on me! pffttt. i'm not the only one who didn't move propoerly or move at all luh, sitting next to dawn is uh pressurizing. she looks so SERIOUS when we're playing while i'm holding my laughter at my yinzhun and gritting my teeth at the teacher. haha! my wonderful contradicting er (isit actions?) aiyah -inserts word. =x

haha met becky SO MANYMANY TIMES TODAY! and we talked. yay! about house stuff as usual. hm. oh and i realised (seems finally according to becky and yanny) that yanny removed her braces so her teeth look er bare. HAHA i do'nt wanna take off my braces. anyway! dawn was feeling all happy and nice = lamelamelame!

i'm not a stoner! >< haha and there was this time when we were walking to the kschee to put back the pu jias then one of them was falling cos STRONG DAWN was carrying many and she wanted me to headbutt it. HAHA, okay my cello to headbutt it. LOL. whatever maan. walking here and there getting instruments and stuff was fun! (: though at first our box disappearence is still uh greatly saddening. (oh i just realised i spelt that word wrongly, ah nevermind!)

OKAY I SHAN'T GO INTO SPECIFICS. taa! <3

and i shan't lose hope cos one day, i'll pull through! (:

okay yay i'm finally here! (: yesterday was a BLAST despite us being "caught" by sherry (and making her sad or disappointed) and having to play one-by-one. i didn't play my best hm but aiyah, it was okay. haha. AAAND dawn was  so weirdly HIGH and feeling super nice.  haha it was so funny. i can't remember what happened exactly though except she was super HIGH about soccer. o.o world cup, tsk. haha.

TODAY WAS MUCH BETTER! (well not much there're some major drawbacks here?). anyhow! dawn's so nice to pester when she's in a good mood, she laughs when you whine and make you laugh too! and then she gives weird comments and start flapping her arms. HAHA, fly dawnbirdie! flyyy! (hey! that sounds gross! nevermind! ) haha.

dazu today was cool cos guess who's present today! i bet alot of people know luh. so it was nice putting my observation skills to practice since i was being pretty much daoed by alot of people and dawn didn't seem like she wants to crap. >< (there's always qian though! HAHA, where's that cheryl TAN. ) _____ ______ plays so funnily. dawn's funny too, if she talks to me i'll (insert missing word which has about same meaning as snap! ><) o.o sure thing, like she'll ever talk to DAWN. o.o

actually, i think there was quite alot of bitching today within our section. o.o or at least alot of like people who were not satisfied and stuff. grawh, how hypocritical, but aiyah. >< cheryl tan come for prac you er genius! >< haha you better come on monday else wls will really scold you luh. and i KNOW you come my blog. yay! almighty geniusy cheryl! sigh, not only that, dawn said she might _______________________________. and it got me thinking and i was like going all DOWN and stony then. and all of a sudden she talked about a bruise which i got from long time ago during thurs xiaozu. I FELL IN FRONT OF HER! >< okay not the point. point is, it made me realise HOW SLOW MY BODY HEAL MY BRUISES. i thought it'll be relatively fast and easy. >< haha okay how pointless this entry.

oh whee, school reopening in two days time. haha, sigh no more co thrice a week almost nine to five! or actually? i'm getting quite attached to co GENERALLY. made new friends like JOYCE (from dizi!) and got closer to sec two batch (and now no longer referring to __ _______). so i'd rather have prac, haha nevermind, i have no choice.

two thank yous i must dish out todaay!
thank you dawn for updating me on soccer. THOUGH SIGH czech lost. but good game yeah? ><
and thank you qihan for uh answering my sudden call. LOL.

kay! <3 i shall delete some of my xanga posts.